Home is Where the Heart is

They say home is where the heart is and right now my heart is in two places (well that's a lie, it will always been in many places) but for now it feels like two.  You see I left my husband back in Portland to wrap up our life there and I am here starting our new life.  Yes, I miss my man but this isn't what this post is really about.

Its about where do you call home, where does you heart call out to when you feel lost, sad and alone.  For me I was never sure because my family was every place coast to coast all across the nation but I have had some time alone, time to think and time to find me.

You know what home is a place some of us search our whole life for, some of us its the place we grew up, some its any place they lay their head at night and others its always inside of them.

For me I have always made a house but never quite a home.  See to me home is about more then a place to live its the lives you touch around you, the impact of a community and its simply about people.

I called Portland, Oregon home for seven years and I felt like it was the place for a time but I always felt something was missing.  And no it isn't family, you know what it is?  Its what you put into the life  by this I mean the effort.  For the first time in all the places I have lived I feel I am putting myself out there making that effort to connect with people.  Its great and you know what people are reaching back.  Do you see this is what building a community is.

Aside from that......There is  one key thing about Austin, Texas that wasn't in Portland that I needed its culturally diverse and eclectic.  I find I can be me, truly be me, say things and it doesn't offend others, its me being me but I never felt that I could be in other places.  I was told I was to  loud, harsh and too out spoken.  I am still learning about this place and maybe once again its newness makes me feel connected or its warm here and that makes me happy as hell, even if its hot as hell.

Whatever this feeling these crazy ramblings I am having all I know and all I care about is  "Texas is my home right now and my heart is in it and I am damn happy about it"