Revolving around work & Life

Recently I have been thinking about how different my life has become.  An not because I have made a big move to a new state or that I started a new career.  Yes those are changes and these two things have made my style of living change.

I have lived my 20's and half my 30's in a very unique way...My "Work revolved around life" not many people can say that.  My work always came second for the last 15 years, my happiness was built on getting my needs met and then making work happen around me.  Taking this job has changed my whole belief system and I must say it scares me to death.

The past 15 years were amazing, I took jobs that made my life easy.  I didn't wake until I wanted to and if I did wake early it was because I choose the job that I wanted to and I did it because I enjoyed it.  I took jobs that had me exercising for a living which is something that is high on my list of ensuring my happiness.  And over the past 10 years I have made my own work schedule...

Today my "Life revolves around my work"....work is the center of all that I do, it feels as if I am trying to make time to have a life and you know what its hard.  I wake at 6:30 a.m. each morning and am out the door by 7:15 a.m. and work from 8-5 Monday-Friday....I never in my life thought that would be me but it is today and its an adjustment.  So each night I get off, I try to find time to workout, then I eat dinner shower and before I know it the day is over.  Then I get up the next day and do it all over again.

I sound like I am complaining but I am not, I am verbalizing how I feel (what isn't that kind of like complaining) and realizing I am learning how to adjust to a new way of living. I know that nothing is forever and one day I may not be working an 8-5 job.  In the mean time I am learning how to adjust and it isn't so bad but I do feel like I am being cheated out of a life at times.  But we sometimes have to do things to build our career and right know this is it.

THIS IS LIFE!!! And the reality is 3 months from now this will feel normal.  I understand now, how precious weekends are and I try to value the time and make the most of it, because there never seems to be enough of it. As Hugh Prather once said "Just when I think I have learned the way to live, life changes".  And I know it will change again.