The best thing that you ever did

Now I am not going to quote this person because he maybe reading it but said person called on my birthday and we had an awesome talk.  We talked about life accomplishments and he said something like this or better yet let say this is my interpretation of it .....I said moving to Austin has been one of the greatest choices I ever made he said you know me and so and so think "you choosing to be with Eric is one of the best things you ever did"..

You see being the feminist that I am.... saying a man was one of the best things I did always feels wrong and as I write this I feel bad thinking it let alone writing it but that's the feminist in me.  I'm a hard core chick I don't need a man, I am gonna conquer the world......ARE YOU WITH ME!!! Okay reality is I am fiercely independent but being cared for is what makes me feel safe and I hate admitting it because I AM WOMAN HEAR ME ROAR!!!!!!

Serious now....

When I was told this (this being Eric)   I smiled and realized without Eric I really don't think I would have come as far as I have and done it so fast and with such ease.  He has been one of my greatest teachers, he continues to push me out of my comfort zone just enough so I can grow and stretch but always lets me know I can come back.  This summer I have stretched more than I ever thought possible and its all because he said "You can do this" "You are going to take care of us" "I am Proud of you" and this last statement he has said or sent in a text to me everyday since I packed up my car and drove to Texas.

With HIM my life is full of adventure and happiness, he is my greatest cheerleader and I don't believe any man could handle my strength like he does.  You see I am a lot to handle emotional, mentally and God knows what else but he does it and he loves me just as I am.  Even on the days I can't love myself and he sees potential in me when I have trouble seeing it myself. He brings out the best in me and makes the best in me shine.  Without Eric life would just be.....well I don't know....I just know its better with him in it...And I intend to keep it that way...

He is one of the best things I have ever done!!!  And I love him

Its been a long couple of years she said

Today when I asked someone how they have been they said "Its been a long couple years" this gave me pause because those six words spoke volumes.  It made my heart ache because it was as if she didn't know were to start or to even bother trying and I wasn't sure I wanted to hear it all.  It became a beautiful chat between her and I.

But it got me thinking of my last couple of years.......And what I think is how wonderful its been....work, struggle and accomplishment in these years I wouldn't be laying in bed writing a new blog, experiencing a new city and on a new career path.

Do we every take time as individuals to look back at the past couple of years and look at how far we have come or not come for that matter?  Do we take time to analyze our accomplishments and failures...I think if we did this more we could grow as individuals without asking others if we are going about something right or asking "is this what we should be doing"?.  Maybe we could stop looking outside ourselves for answers and embrace what we know to be out truth from the inside if we took a moment to really look at ourselves.

I have had so much time these past few months living alone to take a look at myself, to analyze my strengths my weaknesses and to look over the past couple years of my life.  And I know now that its only long if, it feels hard and its only hard when I made it hard.  Like all things its perspective and my defiantly is changing each and every year.